MY 'OUTER SPACE'

Hey...

2011-12-03T19:01:00.000-08:00

Hey

Stay with me

As I'm getting naked

Stripped down to the bone

Hey

I'm afraid

This could get ugly

And I might leave here alone

Hey

Talk to me

Don't play me with your silence

Whisper it in my mouth

Cause this is not about hate

It's the start of a new wave

Anything goes from now..

-end of me-

depression

2011-10-08T07:15:00.000-07:00

im freaking depressed, i cried a lot, i cried in front of everyone..what's happening to me? senang sgt air mata ni nak mengalir

....it might be ending soon...

2011-08-29T08:19:00.000-07:00

I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us,
How we met and the sparks flew instantly,
People would say, "They're the lucky ones."
I used to know my place was a spot next to you,
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat,
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on.

Oh, a simple complication,
Miscommunications lead to fall-out.
So many things that I wish you knew,
So many walls that I can't break through.

[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

Next chapter.

How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy,
And you're doing your best to avoid me.
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us,
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here,
But you held your pride like you should've held me.

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how,
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

This is looking like a contest,
Of who can act like they care less,
But I liked it better when you were on my side.
The battle's in your hands now,
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight.
So many things that you wished I knew,
But the story of us might be ending soon.

[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now, now, now.
And we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate 'cause we're going down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

The end.

i'll never let go :')

2011-06-12T21:53:00.000-07:00

Rose: I love you, Jack. Jack: Don't you do that, don't say your good-byes. Not yet, do you understand me?
Rose: I'm so cold.
Jack: Listen, Rose. You're gonna get out of here, you're gonna go on and you're gonna make lots of babies, and you're gonna watch them grow. You're gonna die an old... an old lady warm in her bed, not here, not this night. Not like this, do you understand me?
Rose: I can't feel my body.
Jack: Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... it brought me to you. And I'm thankful for that, Rose. I'm thankful. You must do me this honor. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise.
Rose: I promise.
Jack: Never let go.
Rose: I'll never let go, Jack. I'll never let go.

one 'more' lonely girl :(

2011-04-23T07:20:00.000-07:00

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee sape nak teman aku pi tgk belieber ni????ramai reject nak tgk ngn aku sigh even my lil sis sreeettt..i guess i have to make it on my own eh?

omggg that gurlll mcm nak koyak kan baju bieber jer haha, adik jgn over sgt ea kecik lagi :P

sekali lagi?

2011-04-22T05:08:00.000-07:00

cant wait for this movie to be released :)

absolutely love when this guy said "you are my 1st love and i want you to be my last"..how sweet

kerna...

2011-04-08T05:34:00.000-07:00

.....K.S.K

p/s : get well soon :)

stolen...

2011-04-07T06:27:00.000-07:00

...my heart

Demi cinta ALLAH...

2011-03-31T06:30:00.000-07:00

i took this from this one bubly blogger (http://honeypokapoka.tumblr.com/page/4)

`DEMI CINTA ALLAH`

Dia ingin berubah. Dia ingin jadi seperti dahulu. Sentiasa mengingati Allah, sentiasa takut akan azab-Nya, sentiasa taat pada perintahn-Nya, dan sentiasa jaga batas pergaulan. Dia yakin dan percaya, perempuan yang dijaga oleh Allah, pasti tidak akan membenarkan mana-mana tangan lelaki menyentuh dirinya.

Namun, takala dia merasakan dirinya cukup bahagia dengan hidayah Allah, Allah menguji dirinya. Allah menghadirkan dirinya dengan seorang lelaki yang menuntut balasan cinta. Dirinya dimewahkan dengan kata-kata pujian, dengan gurindam rindu dan madah-madah cinta yang sebelum ini tidak pernah meneroka hati dan jiwanya.

Dia percaya cinta dari Allah, tapi dia lupa itu bukan caranya. Dia alpa. Hatinya sudah tidak seperti dahulu. Hatinya dilimpahi rasa rindu si jejaka. Rindu si nafsu yang mengwar-warkan kemanisan cinta manusia. Bukan dia tidak sedar dia sudah berubah, bukan juga dia tidak sedar bahawa ketenangan hati yang pernah dianugerahkan oleh Allah semakin menjauhi. Dia menutup kesedaran itu dengan janji dan kata-kata cinta si jejaka.

Dia sudah jauh dari hidayah Allah. Imannya rapuh, syaitan menari-nari tatkala dia membenarkan tangan rakus si jejaka menyentuh dirinya bersama alunan syahdu janji kekasih. Tempat yang sepatutnya dia jaga, didedahkan. Kononnya yakin si jejaka adalah suaminya.

Tidakkah dia takut dengan dosa atau dengan azab Allah?. Ya, dia sedar tetapi separa sedar. Rasa sayangnya pada jejaka itu mulai melebihi segalanya. Namun, syukur pada Allah, Allah masih sayang padanya. Jejaka itu gagal menawan mahkota dirinya. Saat dirinya berutus cinta, dia masih lagi solat, dia tidak lupa tanggungjawabnya. Namun mungkin solatnya masih tidak sempurna lalu robohlah benteng imannya dipukul ombak nafsu cinta manusia.

Allamdullilah. Allah menurunkan hidayah pada dirinya. Di saat jejaka menyepikan diri seketika, dirinya dilanda rasa berdosa. Mengingati kembali dosa-dosa yang dilakukan, mengalir air mata kekesalan. Disaksikan kegelapan malam, dia bangun untuk bersolat taubat. Menangislah dirinya sepuas-puasnya. Dia memohon petunjuk pada Allah, dia ingin kembali, kembali atas cinta. Demi cinta Allah yang tidak pernah berpaling dari hidupnya dia nekad untuk berubah. Namun hatinya sedikit takut akan janji Allah.

“Wanita yang baik adalah untuk lelaki yang baik dan begitu sebaliknya.”

Apa yang patut dia lakukan kini. Dia mula merasakan dia bukan dari kalangan wanita yang baik-baik. Tidak layak untuk sesiapa. Dia menutup pintu hatinya seketika dari cinta manusia yang bernafsu yang mengeruhkan kolam keimanannya yang pasang surut. Sehingga ditakdirkan Allah untuk dirinya bertemu dengan seseorang yang mencintainya kerana Allah.

“Demi cinta Allah yang ku kejar, kuatkan hatiku untuk bertahan, berikan ku kecerdasan akal untuk sentiasa berfikir tentang kuasaMu, hulurkan pertolonganMu di saat-saat aku hampir tewas, sinarkan nur hidayahMu untuk aku terus di jalanMu. Ya Allah! Aku memohon keampunan kepadaMu.”

(Source: iluvislam.com)

Ya Allah lindungi lah aku dari segala maksiat hati dan yang seiring dengannya, astagfirulahalazim...

simply beautiful and stunning.

2011-03-30T05:18:00.000-07:00

i couldnt stop myself from reading the compilation of 'Riwayat Bidadari syurga', simply inspiring..

buku ni menceritakan kisah2 wanita2 zaman Rasulullah S.A.W dan sgt bgs dijadikan tauladan

One of the story that im touched by;

-Ainul Mardhiah-

Dirimu pembakar semangat perwira,

Rela berkorban demi agama,

Kau jadi taruhan berjuta pemuda,

Yang bakal dinobat sebagai syuhada,

Itulah janji Pencipta,

Yang Esa

Engkaulah bidadari dalam syurga,

Bersemayam di mahligai bahagia,

Anggun gayamu wahai seorang puteri,

Indahnya wajay bermandi seri

Menjadi cermin tamsilan kendiri,

Untuk melakar satu wacana,

Buatmu bernama wanita

Ainul Mardhiah,

Kau seharum kuntuman di taman syurga,

Menanti hadirnya seorang lelaki,

Untuk menjadi bukti cinta sejati

Oh Tuhan,

Bisakah dicari di dunia ini,

Seorang wanita bak bidadari,

Menghulurkan cinta setulus kasih

Di hati lelaki bernama kekasih...

Demi Cinta zainab..

2011-03-30T05:05:00.000-07:00

Di kiri kekufuran di kanannya iman,

Di sisi suami di hati seorang ayah,

di antara hukum dan di antara cinta,

berdirinya dikau di tengah-tengahnya,

Bukan mudah menjadi puteri Rasulullah,

Ketika suamimu masih jahiliah....

sometimes...

2011-03-21T05:20:00.000-07:00

....i just wish that...

...i could just banish, gone, or disappear...

.....and come back with a new soul.

I do :)

2011-03-12T01:49:00.000-08:00

.....

2011-03-04T06:08:00.000-08:00

...ISS

ECG...

2011-03-02T01:16:00.000-08:00

Definition :

An electrocardiogram (ECG) is a test that records the electrical activity of the heart.

the placement of ECG leads in patient ;

(how to perform ecg)

(cardiac conduction)

(the cardiac cycle=how heart work)

this is the question asked by my lecturer which i couldn't really answer it..

why use only 10 wires but 12 leads?

- A lead is a view of the electrical activity of the heart from a particular angle across the body, obtained by using different combinations of these wires. Leads are pictures, you cannot point to one of the wires or electrodes on the patient and say "this is lead so and so", to say this you would have to point to a "group" of wires.To obtain a 12 lead ecg you would have 4 wires attached to each of the limbs, and six wires placed around the chest, 10 wires in total but you get 12 "leads" or pictures.

glee episode - justin bieber(baby)

2011-02-23T05:48:00.001-08:00

i am so falling in love if anyone sing that way to me *wink*

counting down.....

2011-02-23T01:54:00.000-08:00

1 YEAR AND 20 WEEKS more...

to get the 'DR. title'

...so what do i really feel about it?? well the pressure is not there yet as i'm still enjoying the 'honeymoon year' i.e the 4th year but it's going to end soon in another well lets say erm two months ey? yeah that's right and then we'll be doing our electives/holiday for another two months and there--> 'final year' student..pheww eh how come time fly so fast?? why do i feel like it's only yesterday i'm entering my first year???

when the anxiety comes this is what i'll be like....

- taknakkkkkkkkk takottttt ar nak jadi doktor dah ker??? tak bersedia lagi lahhh (smbil lari2 keliling kolej haha)..yeay i know i'm a bit denial there but you have no idea what's it's like to be a doctor i mean the responsibility, we're dealing with human's live man, wat the fish mcm lah ak dah jadi dr kan haha(sekarang boleh ketawa2 hu ha sane sini, well see me in june 2011 and see how i'll be then)...

p/s : ni sume salah lecturer yg asyik mengingatkan kami jer pasal '1 year n 20 weeks' hishhh saje jer lah tu nak bg org stress haha but it's a good reminder actually..

nevertheless i'm praying hard that i'll be graduating and receiving my MBBS in June 2012...most importantly is that i graduate at least as a.....

"SAFE DOCTOR"

amin..

-one of the field that i love :P-

hey adorable lil' alien,

2011-02-19T23:50:00.000-08:00

merisik khabar...

2011-02-19T05:09:00.000-08:00

Terkapar-kapar ku kelemasan

Sakit dilambung ombak kerinduan

Di dalam tidur di dalam jaga

Diburu oleh mimpi yang serupa

Mengapa aku jadi tak menentu

Keranamu...

Ku menyusuri jalan berliku

Membiarkan hari-hari berlalu

Tiada salam tiada pesan

Memaksa diri untuk melupakan

Namun wajahmu bermain di mata ku

Tiap waktu...

Malam ku suram, siang ku kelam

Ku kegelisahan, mencari-cari

Kemana pergi, harga diri ini

Bertanyakan berita, merisik khabar

Mendengar cerita, melaluinya

Kau kuhampiri, tiap hari

Bersama luka dihati

p/s : such a beautiful story....

what if...

2011-02-18T02:46:00.000-08:00

...i am the one who's going to break the promises?

dear you...

2011-02-17T07:10:00.000-08:00

~lets grow old together...~

the only exception....

2011-02-15T06:30:00.000-08:00

"Because it was worth the risk"

firefighter!

2011-02-09T12:03:00.000-08:00

JI HOO, can you please save me from all of this mess...i'm so freaking tired... :(

p/s : though you're handsome but i wanna cut your hair coz that's the only thing that i cant stand :P

bingkisan kaseh :)

2011-02-06T22:17:00.000-08:00

Tak perlu mencari teman secantik balqis, andai diri tak sehebat sulaiman,

Mengapa mengharapkan teman setampan yusof andai kasih tak setulus zulaikha,

Tak perlu mengharapkan teman seteguh Ibrahim andai diri tak sekuat siti hajar,

Dan mengapa didambakan teman hidup bak siti khadijah kalau diri tak sesempurna Rasulullah s.a.w..

Bimbinglah dirinya dan terimalah kekurangan itu sebagai keunikan,

Carilah kebaikan pada dirinya dan bersyukurlah kerana dipertemukan dengannya,

Tetaplah berdoa agar dia terus menjadi milikmu~

sinar harapanku...

2011-02-06T05:02:00.000-08:00

aku tak tahu nak mula dari mane, jadi maafkan lah seandainya luahan hati ini kelihatan berserabut...umur aku dah 23 tahun, tapi selama 23 tahun nie, banyak sangat dosa dan kesalahan yang aku dah buat, agak hati ni tak pernah putih, hitam jer tak pun kelabu, kalau kaler pelangi takpe gak cantik skit..tibe2 aku terpikir, kalaulah ajal ku yang telah terukir di luh mahfuz jatuh pada hari esok, boleh tak aku masuk syurga? bersediakah aku nak menghadap Yang Maha Esa? ape aku nak jawab bile kene tanye ape aku dah buat dekat dunia ni? ape sumbangan aku pada islam? aku sedih sangat, sangat sangat sebab setiap kali aku berikrar, janji bagai nak rak yang aku tak kan ulangi dosa yang telah aku buat...aku tewas, tewas dengan nafsu, syaitan dan segala...setiap kali aku cakap nak jadi budak baik, nak betul kan aqidah, tambah ibadah...janji tinggal janji....kenapalah lemah sangat aku ni???rase cam nak tumbuk diri sendiri pun ade gak tapi perlahan jer lah kan, sakit plak nanti...manusia mmg lemah sentiasa melakukan kesilapan, sebab tue setiap hari kite kene solat, kene istigfar banyak2 sbb kite ni manusia yang sering melakukan dosa..kadang2 nak mintak ampun pun sampai naik malu, sebab banyak sangat dosa, tapi sesungguhnya Allah tu Maha pengampun kan...aku harap aku cukup kuat untuk sentiasa memohon ampun kepada Allah dan supaya aku tak tersasar jauh dari landasan Islam...amin

kembar lain mak lain ayah wee

2011-01-31T04:20:00.000-08:00

regarding the title above, wondering why its stated like that??

sebabnyer raja farah tue tarikh lahir die same ngn aku, 05 july 1988 hehe..umur same tapi dah kawin die kan..video ni pun sweet sgt n sumpah muka hubby die cam abg technician kat cucms hehe nak tahan gelak tak tahan..pape pun raja farah cantik sgt :)

- nak kasut camtue cantik lah
- comelnyer hp iphone same, pastu ader gmbr same soweet
- hehe comel bile time raja farah nk hidangkan air tuk hubby die, mcm mula2 ganas jer pastu maybe cm teringt eh dh jd isteri so kene jd cam ayu

SMS~

2011-01-31T04:03:00.000-08:00

i never adore SMS before and not even now that's why i never watch his wed videos or pictures but somehow today i came across this video and im so touched by it..i just wish them happiness till the end(jgnlah bercerai berai pulak yer)..satu lagi dpt tgk our dr fuad yg cute dlm video ni haha

p/s : tak tau nape sgt sgt lah sebak cm nak mengalir air mata tgk video ni

wondering why...

2010-11-20T21:43:00.000-08:00

.......there's no spark, no magic, no NOTHING.......

when you were forced to do something, there will be no enjoyment or satisfations in doing it..

because it does not come from your heart, from your SINCERE heart...

so we should ALWAYS follow our heart and our dreams!

aja aja fighting :) mari menuju kejayaan

~of indian wedding reception~

2010-11-20T03:31:00.000-08:00

Bhav just uploaded the pictures on her sister wedding reception last week. i personally enjoyed it very much and it's a new experience for me, '1 Malaysia' :)..thanks for inviting us bhav, now we have a rough idea on how your wedding's going to be :P

~the bride and groom~

~the venue~

~the main table~

~beautiful instrumental music~

~omg anak sape tue ketawa tak ingat dunia~

~from left : parvin, nalini, bhavani and dhavinia(parvin's sister)~

~us(me, nana and hafiz), oh btw hafiz thanks for making all of us laugh with your 'loyar buruk jokes eh, and for being our driver' :P~

S.. A ...A...

2010-11-16T18:09:00.000-08:00

to all muslims, eid mubarak yo' all :)

sedihhhhhh tau tak beraya kat perantauan nie, tapi takpe akan ku tabahkan diri walaupun im a bit cranky currently..(cis lah kepada group sape yg dapat cuti lebih2 tue)...hehe takde la main jer, salam!!

p/s : nak sup dagingggggggggg....

danggggg! okay stop enough..

chow

things that i'm dying for right now....

2010-11-16T18:02:00.000-08:00

1) rojak carkoi CS

2) big apple3) laksa johor (nape ntah ngidam nie, padahal takde la suke sgt pun)

4) cool blog (confirm addictive la)

5) harry potter the movie (jom pi date tgk weasleys hehe)

p/s : sape2 bagi aku sume benda ni sekarang, aku mmg sayang sgt kat die muahaha, ade kah?

does he holds you when you cry?

2010-11-13T20:00:00.000-08:00

to all the boys out there, appreciate your girl before its too late...Before you know it you'll be singing this song over and over again...wondering why....

p/s : i love this song :)

lyric : like we used to be

I could feel her breath as she's sleeping next to me
Sharing pillows and cold feet
She can feel my heart; fell asleep to its beat
Under blankets and warm sheets
If only I could be in that bed again
If only it were me instead of him

Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts?
When you've seen it a million times
Does he sing to all your music?
While you dance to purple rain
Does he do all these things?
Like I used to?

14 months and 7 days ago,
Oh I know you know how we felt about that night
Just your skin against the window
Oh we took it slow and we both know
It shoulda been me inside that car
It should have been me instead of him in the dark

Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts?
When you've seen it a million times
Does he sing to all your music?
While you dance to purple rain
Does he do all these things?
Like I used to?

I know that love happens all the time, love
(I'm a sucker for that feeling)
You're on my mind, love
(I always end up feeling cheated)
And that happens all the time, love
(Oh darling, I know I'm not needed)

Will he love you like I loved you?
Will he tell you everyday?
Will he make you feel like your invincible
With every word he'll say
Can you promise me that this was right?
Don't throw it all away
Can you do all these things?
Will you do all these things?
Like we used to

Oh like we used to

for my internet lover :)

2010-11-13T19:47:00.001-08:00

this song is soo cute and cheeky, comellllllllll....just listen to the lyric and have fun :)

seriously???

2010-11-13T17:23:00.000-08:00